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clearing the air...
This is a little long, so if you can't read two paragraphs without pics inbetween, you may wanna skip it...
First, this is not directed at anyone specifically, so "FE and going broke", get over it, this ain't about you. Secondly, it's not directed at any particular political party. so you "pubs" and "dems" put yer poison pens back in yer pockets.
Sometimes when you begin to care about something too much, you can get real defensive of it. Maybe that's what happened to me and FM. Like some of you, I made a lot of real good friends here. Lifetime kinda friendships that guys don't do very well too often. At least I don't. Anyway, as the political season heated up, I grew more and more disenchanted with the whole garage thing. Several folks in my circle discussed it with me off line and I even emailed the eds about it. Combine that with some newer folks that rubbed a lot of us the wrong way initially (ok, well some still do), and you have the receipe for an out and out forum breakdown. Some don't see it that way, and I try to respect that point of view, but it's hard because I don't want to accept that all internet forums are full of bickering, pettiness, and flame throwing. I didn't want to accept that FM was becoming that way, and frankly, I still don't accept it, and never will.
Combine this with some personal stuff concerning my son, his car that died, my own car that I STILL doesn't have a motor, and some genuine seasonal depression, I've developed a pretty short fuse. That fuse is still short and I can't guarantee when (or if) it'll be any better.
So, I told Cook that I'd had it with FM and wouldn't be back. Meant it too. Part of me still does, but another part of me wants to give it another chance, to be part of the solution instead of giving up. I dunno.
So here's the deal. I'll be around. I'll try not to react when some of you guys piss me off. I'll post when I think it's relevant. Mainly, though, I just wanna be a part of this without being cursed at, demonized, or treated like the dog crap on the bottom of your shoes. I guess that's not too much to ask...we'll see.
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